Internal Bleeding

Stress and depression
Theres lesser progression
More of regrets and fretting and second-guessing
Feels like Im caught in lies, Im in a mess
I really need to brought to life like evanescence
I try to suppress it,
Dont try to address it
Cos Id like to forget it
But its like its embedded in my mind
My brain
Its like Im insane
So Im putting on a mask tryna hide the pain
Cant find the root of it and so I hide away
And I sit there, hoping it will slide away
Come help me,
Preferably right away
Im unhealthy;
I should eat my 5 a day
Cos theres been stress on my mind since my uncle died
Whats the point of life if were destined to die?
Im bleeding internally
Im in need of heart surgery, urgently

I need surgery urgently
I need healing
I need freedom
From these demons
Pains in my veins and Id hate to be aching in vain (X2)

Im internally bleeding
It hurts and it burns come and purchase my freedom
Im eternally seeking
For the keys to be free and released from the grief
And its worse, cos there aint no person whos feeling
The way I feel or deals with what I deal with
So I act like its nothing and its fine
I plaster on a smile but its impossible to hide
And this is real talk I aint just dropping on the make
Im in urgent need of help and so Im dropping all my pride
My arteries are leaking
Its hard to see the reason
A part of me is weakened its a problem in my life
But I wipe my eyes, I do not believe in crying
And I believe in God but hes forgotten Im alive
Im bleeding internally
Im in need of heart surgery, urgently

I need surgery urgently
I need healing
I need freedom
From these demons
Pains in my veins and Id hate to be aching in vain (X2)

Lost memories
Nothing but heartache
Loved ones laying in cemeteries
Stress and hard days
Lord I wanna know
Why my life is disordered and broke
Even in a crowd, Im all on my own
Even though Im down,
Lord youre my hope
Id rather be taken out than give in
I stand out, I aint tryna fit in
Id have to get made redundant, I aint quitting
Even if I get taken under, Im swimming
Im internally bleeding now
And I will be for a long time
And although I am feeling down
Do not think I will not rise

Its like Im in a prison
I need this out of my system (X4)

I need surgery urgently
I need healing
I need freedom
From these demons
Pains in my veins and Id hate to be aching in vain (X4)