I don't know how deep to go, but imma let it all out so come the show Got my first of my mate, I ain't gonna say his name It was fun at the start, I used to treat it like a This around the time when The Nebulizer I was on all of shit, but there's one I couldn't stop And it played with my brain, but I focused on the I focused so much, didn't I abused it Never had a to stop, not in that prediction Going fame, couldn't see I had addictions 1 turned to 2, turned to 3, turned to 4 I need about 6 a day, a little bit more Mixing it lean, gotta stop people seeing What damages can be by at me, shit What to do I feel like a fool and I hate any rapper making xaney's look cool Shit was getting bad I was filled up with Thoughts in my mind, I would argue April I would stop, shit I'd give it a go By the first fucking night, like slitting my throat Second night, my body The ambulance appear and I'm thinking in my mind, what the fuck they here? Suddenly I'm up and there's no time to muck round Lucky I got here, cause my body to shut down
Back to square one, nah man you can't You wean yourself off, that's some hard shit What the man, my brain is a mess I can't remember much, feel the pain in my legs I wish it was easy, I could give up and go And people still got the hide to tell me pick up my that's my fault, I didn't speak on it much I see if as a problem, I would keep it from cunts Rates could always tell, when I pronounce certain words, brain dead Yeah I be proud? Anxiety was killin' me, the doctors deal with me Put me on a program cut me down on the pills and All scared, cause I on my own I told 'em "let me chill', now they think I'm dissing bro Waking up tired, I gotta take pills And I even wanna take 'em, is this fuckin for real? Losing touch of myself, like reality's false It's I'm walking around without having a pulse It's a feeling of death, or like is left Cause I'm holding my chest, just put a hole in my head You see the older I get, It's scary as fuck I'm like an eighteen in the head, I weren't aware of those The shit that they cause, I talk to mirrors on I need this shit ever, but to pills I will fall
I opened up on 'No Rest' told everything That I done ice, leave out anything I quit that shit, yeah I it flat dead That was 5 years ago, they think I'm a crackhead If that's what we going off, me dead In 5 years be clean, they'll be calling me a xaney head Funny how the works for a paycheck Once the fame hit, I a train wreck I wasn't shit anyway, so why it count? Why so many people love me? I figure it out But I'm telling you now, don't you my path Look you if you tried, cause I'm going in hard Fuck a poppin a pill, to go out today I end up like this? I don't know, it's a way Well I'm the fame, yeah I said it before But it's enough to make me high, feel ending it all, but I
Brush it off got my fans on my too, and my girl and my brothers And the whole Spilling the truth, like all I can do That's why I don't have time for rappers are saying they're true When they lie to fans, apologize in the end I never lied to mine and is why I'm the man I tell you what I'm going through, I don't care what think That's why I'm triple popping pills, leaning the sink I'm almost fuckin crying as I'm writing this Cause of all my close ones, and the lives I I came from the bottom, I it my problem the option, now fame has adoptin' My gotta stop it, insane I am not this Strange we got Scot sick, imma watch a tick fuck off, I said it just fuck off If I won't have my tablets I'll find a bridge to off Fuckin idiots, that the shit is cool 'Till they dyin' in the vomit of there own What I to say? Don't do what I done cut down on the program, yeah I've won Repped it from the street, turned into a star a fuckin habit on the xanex but the bars went Crazy and I'm dealing with fame I just want my fans to that I'll still be the same. I'm good