Yeah, most of my adult life I've been torn two If you love me I love you and this song is for you It's tight hard you know when you sick And shorty seein' you is an emotional wreck
The closer I get, it's like the I feel And my heart has turned this heavy armor and steel It's hard to be real, hard to to the dumb shit And I a lot of pills 'cause it numbs shit
I I had another path to follow that I could be a man and learn to pass the bottle A novel, my future a box or an urn Havin' about death but I'm not that concerned
And I'm diseased through the they turn Watchin' leaves from the trees turn disease and they I'm eager to learn but I'm my breath And everyday is just another closer to death
Yeah, I've alive longer then I expected to be And took of everything that's expected of me Took care of my girl and my I told her that I'm always and I love her
I handle shit differently 'cause I'm now And the truth is that I'd rather be now I'd not have to deal with the day And I hate when people ask me how I'm today
My Rasul, we had a beef and grudge But we grew up together, cousin, so it's peace and I wish all the best, I all the shine I I didn't wanna offer my thoughts with a nine
I'm thoughtful and kind but I'm evil But everything I love has turned to a task I that life a waiting game for people to pass But ever want you to see through the mask
Yeah, I don't be a burden to y'all I just wanna exactly what my purpose is for I feel like nothin' I do is right And that I'm actin' a fool another
And I admit, I take care of myself So I do a lot of thinkin' and preparing 'Cause the fact is my father young and I might too And it ain't any way to tell I might do
I don't wanna leave my mother I don't want for her to cry because the is mine I want for her to grind no more I don't want for her to a 9 to 5 no more
I ain't have to a fuckin' 9 to 5 before So I'm tryin' to get this to provide for y'all And if the shit ain't work out and I'm gone Just remember the motherfuckin' love isn't gone