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Now, this get a little personal
Or a lot
Parental is advised

Yo look

I was ten, shit, I believed I could fly
I would just my fucking arms and try to meet with the sky
And in my mind I'd envision that I was with God
And then I'd chop his fucking fist off and him with mine
But this is just a fucking portion of the war with my
So I'mma you fuckers back and through the vortex of time
When I was seven me at the bottom of stairs
And I solemnly swear that is the truth, no fallacy here
See I was young, man, I was a toddler, a kid
And he wasn't the to successfully try but he did
He took me to the basement and the lights had been cut
He whipped it out and sodomized and his cock through my gut

See it was weird because I felt like I was losing my
And then it happened it happened millions of times
And I would that I would tell but they would think that I was lyin'
And now the power that he held was like a beacon of
So now I got used to it, I put up the shit
And now my was so volcanically eruptive and shit
But this is nothing I guess he told his friend what he do
And they ate it up, shit I was a buffet for two

And it happened in a home where every fucking one knew
And they do shit but fucking blame it on youth
I'm sorry mom but I used to blame it on you
But even you, by then wouldn't what to do

And now it happened so often that he was getting
And I'm more every time, word to my speed and ventricular
One night he home and I was asleep in my bed
He on top of me and forced himself between my legs
He me, hey Ray, I see you like them Popsicle sticks
So put your mouth on my dick and swallow the spit

And I was confused but I was so I did what he said
I had no idea the effect it would on my head
My heart was pumping it was with like tons of my fear
Imagine being and seeing cum in your underwear
I know it's but sometimes I'd even bleed from my butt
Disgusting right? Now let that feeling ring through guts

I thought of offing myself, I thought of killing niggas
Wanted to take a fucking brick and push they teeth through liver
Wanted to smash the fucking and burn its leftover parts
to rip it out and just fucking step on my heart

Then I grew up and I wasn't within the of these men
But that didn't keep me out the motherfucking of my sin
And psychologically I was just as fucked as come
I was confused, I had to prove I fucked from the jump
I was afraid of myself, I had no love for
I tried to kill, I to hide, I tried to run from myself
was a point in my life where I didn't like who I was
So I'd the other people I would try to become
Sexuality into play and with as scarred as I was
I was extremely scared of men so I started girls
I started starving myself, fucked up my health
I didn't be attractive to nobody else
I didn't want the appeal, to stunt my own growth
But there's a fucking behind every scar that I show
I never got to be a kid so that's as far as I
My mental state is out of date, and as far as I know

My biggest problem was fear, and what being could do
It made me run, it made me it made me scared of the truth
I'm not deranged anymore, I'm not the anymore
I mean I'm sane but I'm insane but not the as before
I had to with my shit, I had to look at my truth
To understand to grow you've got to look at your root
I had to cut off the dead, I had to make proud
And now I'm just standing breathing proof look at me now
I it through everything, I made you look like a clown
I'm fucking great, fucking hate, you nigga look at me now

Now I'm just saying this to tell you there's a way from the
The makings of a legend are hidden in trials
So just be strong and move on and just accept what you can
Because it makes your story better when you at the end

There's a behind every single scar that I show
I it out, this a me nobody's gotten before
I had to my wounds, I had to bleed til I stopped it
Thanks for me here as I cleaned out my closet
I said I opened my wounds, I had to til I stopped it
Thanks for joining me here as I out my closet