So many memories I don't got me weak in the knees like I don't wanna stand I try to back like a rubberband But got another plan To bury this rap cat land My closest aunt fell to a mad man He rapped her he stabbed her he her in the trash can In Tulsa da home of the GAP ban buried Charlene boomie My rap fan I cant express how much I miss the I spent with you God why they have to kill my mamas twin Niqqa you lucky cops sent you to Cuz I was comin to you to hell After my choppers wings you I was jus a shorty when my cousin died A star runnin back from Long probably high His friend and his wife set off the right He caught them in bed let to his homicide Right on his death bed to die He wrote a for his wife The That's Not A Far Goodbye Cuz goddamn is not a goodbye or not Guns I woulda for you was i? I cant forget my Zeb Since you left I missin you And I will til my breath Why do so loved ones have to meet a fast death They wanted me to succeed how can I half up in the sky, tears in my eyes Its hard to say even gangstas cry Im in a dark talkin to pictures Too loved ones lost and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya And though im strong, now that your gone Its hard to on even Gangstas cry at night I get lost in the Scriptures Wish I could dig off in your coffin and get ya I ya I put my pain on Theres nothing I can do to remove it My music is if I don't use it I lose it Its so easy to pick up and abuse it When life is confusing you on a way that you to view shit I look at my gun and think of my buddies and Bloody Cuz this is the same demon that took my people me A lot of my was killed over illegal money I so many to bangin dat it aint even funny Its Cookie, its Ramon, its Charles, too to name Its and shane, its pain in memories lane It's a shame when obituaries stack thicker dictionaries I is my mind mentally sane My uncle LeRoy is gone, god let em in, he was more of a figure than His brother ever Look at my its like the head of a veteran I fight more pain than Excedrin ever did I sleep my nightmares are comin unannounced I about people I love cuz im runnin elf Is rap lyrics my they don't wanna bounce Its trapped spirits im thinkin my minds a haunted I pray to my creator til my knees hurt I need work, my use to say I need church This is for my beneath dirt We makin gettin tattoos and rockin Rest In peace Look up in the sky, tears in my Its hard to say even gangstas cry Im in a dark room talkin to Too many ones lost and I miss ya god knows that I miss ya And even im strong, now that your gone Its hard to carry on even cry Late at night I get lost in the Wish I dig off in your coffin and get ya I miss ya