So memories I don't understand They got me weak in the knees like I don't stand I try to back like a rubberband But flashbacks got another To this rap cat under land My closest aunt fell to a mad man He rapped her he stabbed her he through her in the can In Tulsa da home of the GAP ban they buried Charlene My rap fan I express how much I miss the time I spent with you God why they to kill my mamas twin sister Niqqa you lucky cops sent you to Cuz I was comin to you to hell After my choppers wings you I was jus a shorty when my cousin died A star back from Long Beaches probably high His friend and his wife set off the drama He caught in bed which let to his homicide Right on his death bed to die He wrote a song for his The title That's Not A Far Cuz is not a fair goodbye or not Guns I woulda for you was i? I forget my Aunt Zeb Since you left I been you And I til my last breath Why do so many loved ones have to meet a death They wanted me to succeed how can I half up in the sky, tears in my eyes Its hard to say goodbye even cry Im in a dark talkin to pictures Too many loved ones lost and I miss ya god knows I miss ya And though im strong, now that your gone Its hard to carry on even cry Late at I get lost in the Scriptures Wish I dig off in your coffin and get ya I miss ya I put my pain on Theres nothing I can do to remove it My music is therapeutic if I use it I lose it Its so easy to pick up liquor and it When life is confusing you on a way you need to view shit I look at my gun and think of my buddies and Bloody Cuz this is the same that took my people from me A lot of my homies was over illegal money I lost so many to bangin dat it even funny Its Cookie, its Ramon, its Charles, too many to Its and shane, its pain in memories lane It's a shame when obituaries thicker than dictionaries I question is my mind mentally My LeRoy is gone, god let em in, he was more of a father figure His brother ever been Look at my brain its the head of a veteran I fight pain than Excedrin medicine ever did I cant my nightmares are comin unannounced I about people I love cuz im runnin elf Is rap lyrics my they don't wanna bounce Its trapped spirits im thinkin my a haunted house Sometimes I pray to my til my knees hurt I work, my granny use to say I need church This is for my people dirt We makin songs gettin and rockin Rest In peace Look up in the sky, in my eyes Its hard to say even gangstas cry Im in a room talkin to pictures Too many loved ones lost and I ya god knows that I miss ya And though im strong, now that your gone Its to carry on even Gangstas cry Late at night I get lost in the Wish I dig off in your coffin and get ya I miss ya