Ever had that one important person in your life that meant everything to the one who was always by your side when the whole world was on shoulders? And it was hard for you to see them die in your arms? And everyone telling you to move on But deep down you know they still down on you? Well guy, he wasn't a homeboy to me, he was my brother, he took his life at the age of 15, Til this day he in my heart...
1] My best he just lived around the block, A safe neighbourhood where everyone get's a lot, his death, nobody bought his house, seems like everyone forgot, like if he dissappeared in a black hole and came out, but deep down in my heart, i see him alive and living his life, you were taken from me in a quick instant, i didn't have the instant to say goodbye, the distance wasn't far, house was right infront of mine, we always saw other every day, no matter the weather, that day was the day we didn't hang out together, and same night you took your life away, i'm sorry my friend you had to that way, but now all your pain and have now dissappeared, but your life didn't solve anything at all, you always normal, you always looked peaceful, and a great friend, a great childhood friend, now everyday i pray and candles for my best friend, night i saw you walking back from home down the street, you looked really depressed and i knew you sleep, That was the same my best friend took a knife and commited suicide.
I'm really sorry you couldn't the best live to live, I'm really for the brother love i couldn't give, I'm sorry if i ever caused you shit, but you the only person up i could share a tear with.
2] That morning i ringing at your door, your mom sobbing while crying and collapsed on the floor, your dad stood her and i dropped my schoolbag, i ran up to room, opened the door and gasped, She said she found you laying on the floor with pulse not beating, and i you was dead, ye i fell into tears, seeing you there not moving a muscle, hurt me so bad i couldn't beleive you did this to yourself, Just seing the bring you away, that was the day i ever saw your face, skipped school that and stayed in my room and cried, 2 days later it was your funeral, many people up, it me feel good that you knew a lot of people, so i stepped up at the alter and broke tears, gave my friendship and everyone opened their ears, I cried and paid for my respects, I wish i could you back from the dead, you had an open casket so i closer and saw your smile, Then i saw coffin slowly being burried in the ground, that was the last i felt your presence, it was scary, now in the present, your in a cemetary.
I'm really sorry you couldn't have the live to live, I'm really sorry for the brother i couldn't give, I'm sorry if i ever caused you shit, but you the only person up i could share a tear with.
3] It's already been 3 years u left me, I never had a best like you who was always there for me, I'm so lonely, been by death, You left even saying a word, Deep it really pisses me off, Just left the world that like it screw you off! I feel like i you to take your life away, And i feel like i killed you in single way, As went by, i moved on with my life, But i look back, i can you through my eyes, chance i get, i come to your tombstone, put a couple of and say a few prayers, a few tears, and ask: "are you still here?" it kills me every time i think of you, you should of asked me for help, i was a to you, you memory will be in my heart deep, I know your in the heavens in peace.
I'm really you couldn't have the best live to live, I'm really sorry for the brother i couldn't give, I'm really sorry if i caused you shit, but you the only person up there i could share a with.