I've never tears like these before And though they are the saddest I known Their cause is none but one of joy For now it I may not be alone this earth as I have been 'til now A truly unexpected of fate For I had given up on Especially myself, and thought it Too for any soul to cast a line His hook would hit the ice and in two But someone blew a and with his breath what ne'er a roaring fire could do An angel now is mine and the start I knew I was bound to let him in But while I smile I because I know That ends so that this can begin God, what a fool am I, or am I For years have I kept hidden in my The name of one who never had more But whom I about and set apart other men, though never did I tell My feelings, nay, but used him as a An inspiration, to adore But rarely did I on what I'd lose If my affections were replaced By living, breathing, warm and real For while I pledged my life to him in The same for me I knew he did not If I could the truth, I'd say I planned To go on in this for all time I didn't he couldn't care for me As long as I could own him in each And have to think about each night torment after torment wracked my soul To writhe in sorrow, bathe in pain's To fill my pages was my goal Until the day I dared to call it For this love was the I had known And somehow I could the rest away For in my I never was alone And being thus in love, with a specter, I never did expect, nor wish, nor To take another in that holy Though in my mind I no one was there Yay, in my mind, but not so in my I loved, I swear I loved, else why pain of my will I opened up the door And swept the space where I swore hed And something dies within me as I As something new is born in every Past years of memories I long to A future that I long for and fear There really was no question when it This star, both fire and gentleness Who never gave me time to my choice But made my will his own with each For once and only I did not think Where I should feel and for I was proud But it was one thing to enact the And something else to say the word For once I had, I a shadow fade Which over me had hung for all years And no true loss in all the could match The sense of someone passing with my I hadn't known 'til then how I was in this mist of my design So of me my muse had thus become That in my eyes no star was seen to Unless it bore some of my light Or carried strains of in the beams Until my was open to the view No man enter, except in my dreams Its over now and I am not I know full what I am meant to do But late at night when I my muse I cry for us as though he knew That I had waited years to hear my spoken as it should have always been Id wait there still but someone appeared And the heart no man could hope to win If to my I'd ever said hello It might not hurt this to say goodbye But there is something tragic in scene Which may appear as to the eye Of anyone who witnesses in the arms and lips of my new friend Completed in a way I've been And healing wounds I thought would mend The truth that shattered my The soul I dreamed but never Id meet And now I look back except in dreams Yet when I do the pain is always For only can show me who I was And that girl to me how much Ive grown Ive never tears like these before And yes, they are the saddest I have