Is out there...
I I feel so all alone, back down on my knees again Hopin you can keep me strong, 'cause I can't hardly sleep I too many sleepin pills, I drunk too many Miller Lites And I can the Reaper near, so please forgive me for my sins I am just another man, sorry for the that I've caused I that you'll understand, these demons'll drive me - insane I've goin mad, rightly oughta blow out my brains I'm hurtin bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the other day These problems got me usin more drugs, along with the things I'm fading into my thoughts, (come against me, bring it on!) and I'm in and outta space, and I don't believe I'm wakin up with the alcohol, drinks, drift me to another world the sunshine stay shinin, I think I was finna url Mom, can ya look at me? This ain't I used to be Tomorrow, I'll be somebody else, I ain't been me I can't seem to shake these, I'll put that there on day Boy tryna figure me out, is Lamar changing But my childhood was fucked up - raised rowdy by a single She told me my daddy give a fuck, she ain't let him do his job Seventh failing, and I don't know my next of kin days in these fucked up ways, who the fuck are them? My daddy had other kids, but I ain't never seen 'em So, no sense in coming around now, you ain't been here befo' sad but I ain't feelin nuttin, my whole life's been a fuckin maze and when I tried to locate my siblings, they were gone inside they other things, fucked me then, fucked me now Quick to tell me "Show you some love" show you Hell Ain't no love I'm feelin here, I ain't felt this vile - did you really love me, or was I just a child? Said it, outside, I knew you it in my face I wasn't really happy here, but I was to lead the way me a Cheverolet, drift away to the other side just to think If I get to see Heaven, I can you for the ride and thank you for my other kids and even mommas won't admit that they can't make it but bad, low on the support - always been bad boo, tryna make me out to be the bad guy that I really ain't, bitch so to hassle me 'cause I don't see my kids enough, but I the time to pick 'em up But you find somethin to stick in my face - it ain't me up It's bad enough, face to face, always catch a case So bad, they'll try an get me make me - and what takes the cake Is the world is fuckin up, daddy know where the weankess at and you spoke lies to ya old mans eyes, how you sleep wit that? Jepordize everything, just for searchin for larger Sacrificin the whole family, with no regards to Funny how people can take this for granted, right? But then reality strikes, and changes things I the Lord for watchin over me, though I'm prone to doin wrong I repent religiously, hopin that the get strong when the heat on {*wind blowing*} that the weak get strong, when the heat get's on
[talking - echo after pause] Ya know... the different... stays as it likes... Either, headin a storm... ya in a storm... or ya just got out of a storm... (yeah) think it...
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