Is out there...
I swear I feel so all alone, back down on my again Hopin you can me strong, 'cause I can't hardly sleep tonight I took too many sleepin pills, I drunk too many Miller And I can feel the near, so please forgive me for my sins I am just man, sorry for the pain that I've caused I know that you'll understand, demons'll drive me - insane I've been goin mad, oughta blow out my brains I'm hurtin bad but I'm fightin... blast, on the other day These problems got me usin drugs, along with the other things I'm fading into my thoughts, (come against me, bring it on!) and I'm in and outta space, and I don't believe I'm wakin up the alcohol, them drinks, drift me to another world Where the stay shinin, I think I was finna url Mom, can ya look at me? ain't what I used to be Tomorrow, I'll be somebody else, 'cause I been me I can't seem to shake these, I'll put that there on day Boy tryna figure me out, is like Lamar But my childhood was fucked up - raised rowdy by a moms She told me my daddy didn't a fuck, she ain't let him do his job grade; failing, and I don't know my next of kin These in these fucked up ways, who the fuck are them? My had three other kids, but I ain't never seen 'em So, ain't no sense in coming now, you ain't been here befo' It's sad but I ain't feelin nuttin, my life's been a fuckin maze and I tried to locate my siblings, they were gone away Lost inside they things, fucked me then, fucked me now Quick to me "Show you some love" nigga show you Hell Ain't no love I'm feelin here, I ain't felt this vile Momma - did you really love me, or was I a child? Said it, outside, I you seen it in my face I wasn't happy here, but I was forced to lead the way Copped me a Cheverolet, drift away to the other side just to If I get to see Heaven, I can you for the ride and you for my other kids and even though they mommas won't admit that they make it but bad, low on the child support - always bad boo, tryna make me out to be the bad guy that I really ain't, bitch so quick to me 'cause I don't see my kids enough, but I make the to pick 'em up But you find to stick in my face - it ain't me fuckin up It's bad enough, face to face, always wanna a case So bad, they'll try an get me make me - and what takes the cake Is the whole world is fuckin up, daddy know where the at and you spoke lies to ya old mans eyes, how could you wit that? Jepordize everything, just for for larger life Sacrificin the whole family, with no to Christ Funny how people can take shit for granted, right? But then reality strikes, and changes things I thank the Lord for watchin over me, though I'm prone to wrong I repent religiously, hopin that the get strong when the heat get's on {*wind Hopin the weak get strong, when the heat get's on
[talking - echo after pause] Ya know... the different... stays as it likes... Either, into a storm... ya in a storm... or ya just got out of a storm... (yeah) about it...
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