Yeah, this my life to back, top to bottom
Everything's around me These days don't the same We all lost faith and lost Why we play this game? Lord mercy on me I've been a man Pull out my wings, off the bridge and crash in a plane If I land...
Know I die We live in my mind And I say We live forever, that life
There's a lot on but I stick to the ones I love I never to be a perfect man but name a great man who was Consequences of my in the past years had me stressin' out It was like, May, I just to L.A., I was tryna figure it out Medication for depression I cut cold turkey, had the kid manic In an out in Hollywood, wildin' out like Nick Cannon Railin' Adderall pills out a dollar bill, on the bathroom Clean the mess up with my nose, what the fuck I need a vacuum for? New City on my birthday, June 6th, 2014 I had that first meeting with Hov, I brought out the whole team I drank that whole of D'usse Ty Ty gave me that night When we left the club Rap Genius house me and shorty got into a fight She came out the swingin', hit me in the jaw I was tryna fend her off But I up in the closet with my hands around her neck I was trippin', Too to apologize or empathize, I blamed it all on her Sayin' she hit me first, even though she was the one hurt I was really reflectin' all the hurt that I was feelin' from the band's rejection When Kids These Days split, that felt like a c-section And my infidelity and jealousy with on top of the amphetamines And the ecstasy had me drown face down in the Chesapeake The next month I "Down on My Luck" and had Europe goin' nuts But I couldn't appreciate it at the time, I was goin' through too much Now I had to leverage million dollar label deals on the for my records In Ibiza paella on the roof, tryna choose over breakfast Hov wasn't with the biddin' war, but I knew the Roc just felt When I saw Kanye at Wireless, without T-Pain, still a life Felt so when Mr. Hudson introduced me to him backstage He prolly even remember that shit... like a bitch off Backpage But at that stage, I was ready to swing for the fence like a batting At the same time, I was down a low point in my addict phase The Adderall started wearin' off and I into a deep writer's block All over a that I couldn't finish that I wrote about signin' to the Roc Isn't that ironic? I was feelin' so With the whole world excited for me and my sayin' I got it got bad out in L.A., so I moved back home to my mom's basement Linked up with Smoko and Papi and took it back to basics Then I wrote "Rage," that was me screamin' out through the And "U Mad," addressin' my relationship Natalie, it was too bad The violence and the slipped suicide into my mental health I did acid in the studio one day and killed myself As I started to apart, certain stars started to align Oh Mys came to Chicago in January at the perfect He said Kanye was workin' on an album, and Uzi played him one of our He was fly me out, nigga, it was goin' down like the Dow Jones up to Westlake, first day I was there, I recorded "Wolves" I knew I was the one, like Lyor meetin' the oracle But I had to get a handle 'fore the was pulled out on SNL All the niggas on me back home lookin' at me like, "FML" A lot of people comin' out the like, "Let's work," tryna network All the pressure makin' my head hurt, the molly wouldn't let the work At this it's like Feb. 1st to the 15th, and I'm still addicted Frustrated, writin' shit for Ye, tryna visualize someone else's he laid that verse on "U Mad" and we made the shit the single Ye and Hov into it over me, tryna do a joint venture And G.O.O.D. Music still fam, but it's Roc boy SAVEMONEY life Took the bus out on the road for the Traffic tour, did a hundred Cleaned out my closet, I got rid of all of my If you learn one thing from my journey, nigga don't stop believin' When this shit got so I could barely even keep breathin' Wrote my wrongs all in this song now I'd like to welcome y'all to my Nigga I'm