1] She was on her way to becoming a graduate Wouldn't stop to talk to the average kid The type of I'd sit and contemplate marriage with Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her love was never for Disciplined, beauty's what I desire Flyer than Salma Hayek or Lopez Everyone told me, kickin' it to her was At I just thought, she didn't mess with broke kids The thug niggaz always about, how they smoke kids But the kids got no play "I'm not even interested" is her body language would say Everyone around the way, up trying to get in it It didn't how good your game was, she wasn't with it All the block bitches was jealous, but admit it Talk shit, and deny to everyone that did it 'Cause they regreted the long list of niggaz that let hit it And no one ever gave them shit except and did-dick Smoking weed thoughts of envy, whenever they lit it She spoke intelligently and they bit it, always trying to But when they tried to use her vocab, sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, respectful and I was in the head for her, and there wasn't a cure
[Hook - Jean Don't you that, time waits for no man And our fate, it's all I'm blessed just to you To have loved and have lost, to hold you all night find, a reason why God came, you and I If I had the again, I'd never let you go Hold tight to your love, you never know
2] Her eyes are and beautiful, yet empty and sad I to talk to her occasionally, and she was glad That I wasn't just another trying to get in it So every now and then we'd stop and talk for a I didn't have a so the minutes turned to hours On her birthday, I gave her a with flowers Then I took her out to dinner her cousin's baby shower We talked about, power to the people and We spent time together but it was never enough I never tried to a touch, or even cop a feel I was too interested, in keeping it Perfectly and complete, she would always call me "carino," And never Technique, bought me a new book to every 2 or 3 weeks Forever changing the of my thoughts when I speak It was of her, I even deaded all of my freaks She convinced me, to stop out on the streets To robbin' and stealin', from people like you Instead I took her out to the Apollo and the Zoo, Museo del barrio and the too Got to the point where I was either her or my crew So I one day, to tell her my feelings was true I couldn't without her so I told her, facing my fears But honey's response, was a face full of tears She could only sob hysterically, me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop until I sight I felt like a who got himself too close to the light Except I didn't burn, I cold after that night
3] I went on with my life, and my career up locked up like an animal for a year Where the C.O.'s talk to you like were the overseer I got sent to the hole, when my exit was near At night in my cell, I'd close my and I'd see her Hold her close in my dreams, but I woke she disappeared Just an cell until the state gave me parole In the summer, came back, in and on track But the fact of the matter, is I still felt Even after my mother, hugged me, at home My niggaz would catch me thinkin', out of my zone lots of different women, but I still felt alone Relatively well-known around the New York But I kept of her and how we used to be down The of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her hair Though gone physically, it was still there I had to do something, because the shit was too to bear So I went and visited the where she used to live The world looks a lot after you do a bid Your way of life done While primitive minds are still stuck in the same Like her cousin who was on the corner slangin' Stepped in the lobby and tapped the button next to her last Her mom me up and hugged me up, like a mother oughta But her facial changed, when I asked about her daughter
4] She told me that there was a note for me, that was left She had left it waiting, for such a long time I was inclined to ask about it but she brought it up I saw a tear swelling up in her eye, and she cursed She told me where the letter was and I started thinking the Reversed my position, stepped over and opened the And sure enough there was an envelope with my on the floor "Nobody loves you more than me carino" is what the letter
"By the time you get to this, I'll probably be dead But you left in '97 a part of me went to Heaven I thank God at I got to know what love really was But it hurt me, to see what true love does 'Cause even though we never love, you were all that there was It was because I loved you so much I had to make you leave You me doubt the way I thought, you made me want to believe And I slipped up, and I let you get close to me It was to not be openly when people spoke to me was not the way I thought my life was supposed to be Baby don't you see, I had a transfusion that left me with HIV Hope didn't exist for me since late in I died a virgin, I wish I could've myself to you I cried in the because there was no one else but you Promise that you'll meet me in paradise No matter what, I'll your love forever with me"
What happened for the rest of the day is a blur But I wishing that I was dead, instead of her She was buried on 3rd The ends without a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't fucking in love with people Hold the person you love closely if they're next to you The one you love, not the person simply has sex with you Appreciate them to the fullest extent, and beyond you never really know what you got, until it's gone