1] She was on her way to becoming a college Wouldn't even to talk to the average kid The type of latina I'd sit and contemplate marriage Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her was never for hire Disciplined, intellectual beauty's I desire Flyer than Salma Hayek or Jennifer Everyone told me, kickin' it to her was At first I just thought, she didn't mess with kids The thug niggaz talking about, how they smoke kids But the rich-sniff-coke got no play "I'm not even interested" is her body language would say around the way, gave up trying to get in it It didn't matter how good your game was, she wasn't it All the block was jealous, but wouldn't admit it Talk shit, and deny to everyone that did it they regreted the long list of niggaz that they let hit it And no one ever gave them shit McDonald's and did-dick Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, they lit it She spoke intelligently and they bit it, always to copy But when they tried to use her vocab, they sounded She had a style, all her own, respectful and I was sick in the head for her, and there a cure
[Hook - Jean Don't you that, time waits for no man And our fate, all planned I'm blessed to know you To have loved and have lost, to hold you all night Can't find, a why God came, you and I If I had the again, I'd never let you go Hold tight to your love, 'cause you never
2] Her are brown and beautiful, yet empty and sad I used to to her occasionally, and she was glad That I wasn't just nigga trying to get in it So every now and then we'd stop and for a minute I have a gimmick so the minutes turned to hours On her birthday, I gave her a poem with Then I took her out to after her cousin's baby shower We talked about, power to the people and We spent more time but it was never enough I never tried to sneak a touch, or even cop a I was too interested, in keeping it Perfectly and complete, she would always call me "carino," And Technique, bought me a new book to read every 2 or 3 weeks Forever the expression of my thoughts when I speak It was because of her, I even all of my freaks She convinced me, to hangin' out on the streets To stop robbin' and stealin', from people you Instead I took her out to the Apollo and the Zoo, Museo del and the Metropolitan too Got to the point where I was either her or my crew So I decided one day, to tell her my feelings was I couldn't live without her so I her, facing my fears But honey's only response, was a face full of She only sob hysterically, holding me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop until I sight I felt like a moth who got himself too to the light Except I didn't burn, I cold after that night
3] I went on with my life, college and my Ended up locked up like an for a year Where the C.O.'s to you like they were the overseer Then I got to the hole, when my exit was near At night in my cell, I'd my eyes and I'd see her Hold her close in my dreams, but when I woke she an empty cell until the state gave me parole In the summer, came back, in and on track But the fact of the matter, is I still cold after my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home My real niggaz would me thinkin', out of my zone Fuckin' lots of different women, but I still felt Relatively well-known around the New underground But I kept thinking of her and how we used to be The sound of her voice, and the smell of her hair Though gone physically, somehow it was there I had to do something, because the was too much to bear So I went and visited the where she used to live The world looks a lot after you do a bid way of life done changed While primitive minds are stuck in the same game her cousin who was on the corner slangin' cocaine Stepped in the lobby and tapped the button to her last name Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up, a mother oughta But her expression changed, when I asked about her daughter
4] She told me that there was a note for me, that was left She had left it waiting, for such a long time I was inclined to ask it but she brought it up first I saw a tear up in her eye, and then she cursed She told me where the was and I started thinking the worst Reversed my position, stepped and opened the door And sure there was an envelope with my name on the floor "Nobody loves you more than me carino" is what the said
"By the time you get to read this, I'll be dead But when you left in '97 a part of me went to I thank God at least I got to know love really was But it hurt me, to see what true love really even though we never made love, you were all that there was It was because I loved you so that I had to make you leave You made me doubt the way I thought, you made me to believe And then I slipped up, and I let you get to me It was to not be openly when people spoke to me was not the way I thought my life was supposed to be Baby don't you see, I had a blood transfusion left me with HIV didn't exist for me since late in 1993 I died a virgin, I wish I given myself to you I cried in the hospital there was no one else but you Promise that you'll meet me in paradise No matter what, I'll keep love forever with me"
What for the rest of the day is still a blur But I wishing that I was dead, instead of her She was buried on 3rd The story without a sequel And now you know why Technique, fucking fall in love with people the person that you love closely if they're next to you The one you love, not the that simply has sex with you Appreciate them to the fullest extent, and then 'Cause you never really know what you got, until gone